My Life, My Pace

Woo~ blog update!! blog update!! =P
Heh~ a bit high bcoz I'm damn bored!! n lonely~

*sob*

Da past few days @ least I hav Xenogears to occupy my free lonely time..
I welcome who wants to occupy my free lonely time, GIRLS ONLY!! =P
sigh.. I've finally finished playing Xenogears within a week..
can't bliv how lifeless I am..
It's suppose to be 60 ~ 70+ hours worth of gaming!!
n I finished it in a week??!! wtf??!!
While everyone is out wif their partners.. I'm @ home lifeless-ing~
I'm not dat lifeless actually.. went out wif my frens to watch "Jumper" last friday~
It was a great movie!! Da 'guy-rescue-girl' kinda stuffs only wif teleport ability..

*sob*

@ least he has a girl to rescue..
Damn!! y don't Blogger add a emoticon function.. den I could add in my fav emoticon.. da "sobbing" emo.. like Windows Messenger =P
seriously.. my life have been damn boring & stone for da past few weeks..
da days passed by so fast.. I dun even know wat was I doing when da days passed.. oh yea, playing Xenogears =P ~

Anyway, wat I wanted to say is.. my days passed by without anything interesting happen..
sigh.. I gotta get rid of my "talking-to-girl-phobia" & my "meeting-new-peepz-phobia"..
I got dis thing about girls dat when I'm around them, I'm F***ing shy!!
and when I'm around strangers, let's say, my fren's fren who I dunno, I dunno how to start a conversation!! WTF??!!
I'll only start to loosen up when THEY start a conversation wif me..
only then, I'll feel accepted in da group & I can loosen up..

*sob*

I'm a sad case.. sigh~ n my 21st bday is coming up in April~
Anyway, I hope things will be better by then........ I hope~
I hope I'll be better.. socially..

Lately.. when I've nothing to do..
I would think about my "timeline".. means.. wat've happened so far..
Firstly, I can't bliv I'm about to be 21!! holy crap!!
Responsibilities r closing in.. syok~ not!!
Fell hopelessly in love, n have been disappointed till I lost hope.. ain't da 1st time..

*sob*

maybe I'm juz no good wif girls..
So~ as da result,
self-confidence: -50%
self-esteem: -50%

*sob*

As for now.. I guess I'll juz concentrate on my work n work~ Cheers all~

It's been a long time since I've updated my blog..
Well~ guess I'll juz rant about how boring it has been for the past few days..

I've rant about how boring it was CNY for me and also not to mention Valentine's..
I muz b really lifeless you would think..
Well, wateva it is.. Yes, you may say i'm lifeless but couldn't help it..
So, keep it to yourself..
It seems dat I'm keen to instrumental music nowadays..
especially those by Pachelbel & Richard Clayderman..
I find da sound of piano is quite relaxing..
Helps me to clear my mind..

However~ dat still do not clear my mind of how farking boring it is..
Da only thing dat keeps me occupied now is playing back one of da best RPG game ever: Xenogears!! Love it!!
Lazy to elaborate about y I love it.. Juz go wiki it if u'r interested..

My iPod Nano is almost full..
Musics alone have taken 3/4 of da space & da Russell Peter's comedy clip has taken da rest of da space..
Which now my iPod has only a remaining of 84MB..
Dat damn video clip took a whooping 450MB!! wtf~?!
but it's worth it though..
If u hav constipation probs, juz watch dat video while u'r at it, & u'll laugh ur crap off!! Serious!! but it's not dat I've tried it.. fark u Mart!! Stop imagining!!

Anyway, during work days, I'm only looking forward to Friday~
bcoz my friend, who only wants to b known as Kz, only comes in during Fridays..
He's still studying.. n is only free on Fridays..
Also it's bcoz da next day is Saturday!! which means I could catch up all da snores I lost during my weekday 10.30pm ~ 3.30/4am gaming (Xenogears) regime..
I know I'm working but da game is too tempting..
Woo~ I've wrote a long entry.. I'll juz leave it here.. Well, till next time~ Cheers!!

I always loved CNY but this year is an exception..
one of da reason is I received damn lil' angpows.. wtf??!!
wat happened to all my relatives??
although they're scattered around da world doesn't mean they can't fly back here rite??
Anyway, da main reason is this CNY is damn sien...........................
sien till I can't be anymore sien-ner than I could be..

of coz da CNY eve & first day we have to spend it wif our families..
dat was still ok~ at least I got to make up da time I lost wif some of my cousins..
I hav lots of cousins but I only managed to spend my time wif 2 of my cousins..
we played Medal of Honor to make up our lost moments together~ wonderful eh?
most of my cousins are studying aboard.. some r graphic designers, animators, doctors, etc. etc.
when I went to my 4th uncle's house to 'pai lin' (visit).. I heard one of my aunt said that she've discovered our family's past histories and it lead to da Qin Dynasty..
she says she'll do more research and may even set-up our family's website..
LoL~ I could imagine our family having our very own "Friendster".

Anyway, yea, back to da main topic.. dis CNY is damn sien..
me and my friends met up a few times in da CNY week @ various places such as our usual spot, McD Centrepoint, it's bcoz they give free refills =P
Sometimes our friend brought other friends along, so we juz chit-chatted and I was trying to enlarge my circle of friends.
We even went up to Genting to visit my friend's friend juz to yam cha (hav tea) @ da Starbucks or @ da mamak..
We also went up to Ampang's Lookout Point juz to have a drink while enjoying da nice KL view bcoz da cafe is up on a mountain.. but we didn't enjoy da KL view most of da time bcoz we were enjoying da view of da girls there..
and it also reminded some of us how lonely we are bcoz most of da customers there are couples.. sigh~~ sad~~

And bcoz of dat, once again I'm reminded dat I've to spend Valentine's Day alone once again..
I'm getting used to this as I've never spent a Valentine's Day wif anyone special before.. bcoz I think I'm a failure in dis getting a gf stuffs.. or maybe it's juz bcoz I'm not brave enuf to ask a girl out.. ah~ wateva..
Anyway, to conclude it for CNY and Valentine's Day.. It's damn stone and lonely..
So, to those who have their special someone, treasure da relationship!! Cheers~