My Life, My Pace

Sigh~ lately I've been emo (being emotional)..
There's been a lot happening lately & most of them sux..
My office was broken in last week, & a few days later,
my house was broken in.. wonder if it was da same knn mcb mch asshole..
If that wasn't enuf to top da limit of my emo-ness..

A girl, who is da only closest friend who is a girl to me is avoiding me..
long story.. maybe it was due to proposal overdose =P
I'll juz reveal da latest event, bcoz da story is too long..
I've liked her for quite a long time, & I've proposed to her once or twice..
Then one sweet night, she sms-ed me around 3am in da morning &
told me wat if she told me that she has feelings for me..
wtf?! of coz I was happy n @ da same time nervous..
Maybe wat I said scare her off..
It was nothing really.. I juz replied her I hav feelings for her too..
but there was no reply from her after dat..
nothing's wrong rite??

Few weeks later, we chatted on msn & somehow, we got to da
"feelings" topic & she said something dat really hurt me..
She said something like "She like to be single for a while & she only treats me as a close fren"..
I was like "wtf?! then wat was wif all those i've feelings for you talk about??" to test me? or mess around wif me?
If dat was enuf to hurt me & confuse me, she wrote a vague shoutout in her friendster saying "Don't giv me hope if there's none.."
Although she didn't say who was dat shoutout aiming to, but I got a feeling it was targeted rite @ my direction..
I was like, "wtf?! dat's my line!!" She was da one giving me hope sending me dat sms saying wat if she said if she has feelings for me.

I was so hurt @ dat moment that I told her dis "Yea, I treat u as my close fren too & maybe it's best we remain dis way"..
I was so pissed off, I didn't contact her from then on..
6 months later, which leads us to dis post's date..
I still miss her.. I feel dat I muz clear things & tell her my feelings for her although there's a chance dat she might not accept it..

Da only good thing so far since year 2008 started was da parties, da outtings, da new iPod & iMac, & I've been asked to submit my resume to try out for da MYC! cover model =P
Dat's good since I wanna enlarge my circle of frens. Rite Mart??
Anyway, hope I hav all your support. Cheers all!!

Yet another year hav passed..
and not only Chinese New Year is approaching..
Valentine's Day is approaching too..
I guess it's another lonely Valentine's for me.. again..
but no matter.. I've never really celebrated Valentine's before bcoz I'm alwiz single..
even when I found my first gf (girlfriend) last three years, we broke up before Valentine's..
even when we got together again AFTER Valentine's..
We broke up again da next year BEFORE Valentine's..
F*ck it!! Maybe I'll never get to celebrate Valentine's..
It's either my luck's really bad, or Valentine's a curse to me that breaks up my relationship before Valentine's..
I'm juz gonna drown myself in alcohols during Valentine's..
If so happen I'm broke, I'll juz drown myself in Teh O' Ais..
Whatever it is, it's just another February da 14th to me.
So, I'll not call it Valentine's Day, I'll juz call it Thur's Day (Thursday =P).
Cheers to Thursday, February da 14th, 2008!!

Sigh.. I'm a hopeless case....
In my last blog entry I said I wanna lessen out on my late night
outtings and more sleeping done.. but....
Again I went out till 4am last night and got screwed this morning..
Sigh.. It's not my intention to be back so late.. but....
Mart parked at a corner, which is also partly my fault because when
I saw da car came out, I said "Wow, we're sure lucky".
It's because a proper parking at McDonalds Centerpoint
aren't easy to get one..
Anyways, like I was saying.. we parked at the so called "lucky spot"..
We chatted till 3am and wanted to leave..
because Mart wants to go home and continue drooling over
Clark Kent in Smallville..
As we walked to his car.. There was this huge thing called "lorry"
blocking the car..
So, we walked and lepak-ed at Centerpoint entrance for like 1 whole hour..
And that's how I ended up going back 4 in the morning..

Well, gotta try to come back early next time..
because if I don't, I'll be kicked out of there..
because I've been warned that if I don't respect the "rules",
I'll just have to rent a room by myself....
Well.. guess this is what we call life..
Anyways, I got a feeling 2008 isn't really my year........
but still.. Cheers to all that have happened!!
I'm a much more experienced guy now..

Nothing much happened lately except for a few late night "teh" session,
mid night movies & late night Genting trips.
I think I'll be adding "late night game session" soon because
I was recently introduce to Mart's group of friends who seems
to be into First Person Shooter games such as Call of Duty and
Counterstrike....
Sigh.. I won't have my decent sleep..
You must be thinking I have a choice right??
Well not exactly.. It's because even if I do not join them,
I'll still stay up till at least 3am in the morning either
totally absorbed by a movie or having my hands glued to a
game console controller..
I dare not picture what'll happened if I bought either
a PS2, Xbox 360, or a Nintendo Wii....
The worst outcome that will most likely to happen is
people will mistaken me for a talking panda..
or a very emo-rocker wannabe..
I should get a shade like Mart.. but I rather not because he'll
label me as a copycat, pirated, clone, ameba, or whatever
crap that duplicates..
However, even though I'm aware of the "severity" of the situation..
I'll still go out for the late night "teh" and movies, because the only
thing which is better than sitting down having a cup of coffee and talk crap with
my buddies is going out with a girl..
but that will not happen like for another millennium, because
I'm a pitiful shy cunt (Mart alwiz calls me this..) who does not dare to start a conversation with a girl..
Anyway, life goes on.. So, Cheers to life!!

I'll take a time off and reflect back about year 2007.
I think it's the most memorable year for me ;)
Hehehe, for some reason, which I'll bold and underline "Da Reason" later.


Ok ok, let's see..

- Graduated with my Diploma in Computer Studies with Distinction (my proudest moment).
- Developed a software for Proton (another proud moment).
- Went to London twice.
- Grew taller by 1cm (a happy moment =D ).
- Acquired new skill: swimming (LoL.. a bit late rite??)
- Found out my total body fat ratio is only 9% (I'm sooooo healthy).
- Started body building.
- Pierced my left ear (which means I'm not gay).
- Colored my hair twice.
- Went through a lot of tough moments with my dad.
- Became an Account Executive + Junior Designer for an advertising agency.
- Started to enjoy my life.

I guess these are the few memories which appealed to me.
There're a lot more but.. most of them MIA..
Anyways, hopefully this New Year bring new joy, love, hope, and opportunities.
Cheers to 2008!!