My Life, My Pace

"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forward."

I'm sure that many of us, at some point in life wished for a reset button or a chance to change the past.
However, the sad thing about life is there is no such thing.

Like the picture above, we can only move forward and there's no u-turn.
If we encounter an obstacle, we'll have to find a way around it and there's really no turning back.
I have met many people who wished they could change certain things they've done in the past and there are some who couldn't let go of the past, myself included.

For me, it's not about not being able to let go of the past. In fact, I've managed to let go of many things which I thought I wouldn't be able to.
I just wished I could change a part in my past and wouldn't lose a few precious friends of mine.
That's my only regret.. my regret of losing my friends. Friends who once stood strong by my side and came to my aid no matter the time and circumstances..

I was too dumb and blinded.. I can't blame anyone but myself for it.
It is because I believe that no one could make you do things without you allowing it in the first place.
We all have a choice; I had a choice; and I took the wrong one.

However, regret could only go so far.
Therefore, since we couldn't change the past, we could only learn from it and prevent the same mistake.
I am thankful I still have a few friends and I am also thankful I am able to meet new ones.

Anyway, just learn to move forward and let the past be a lesson learned.
Holding onto the past prevents one from moving forward.
Good luck and have fun to all~

"Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency"

Why am I stress?
What am I stressing about?

Sometimes I asks myself these question and when I give it a sufficient amount of thought, I realized that even if I worry or stress about it, I can't do anything about it because the answer for the question in hand is not up to me.

I think it's silly to even stress about it because I have a backup plan, but why do I still stress if I have backup plan? To make it simple, my backup plan requires me to ask favors from others which personally I do not like owing favors to others.

Furthermore, asking favors from others will just make me think of silly stuff like they will look down on me.
It gives me a sense as though they do not trust me or is doubting whether I can return the favor that I owe them.

So it's back to the question of why stress?
I guess it's just the way our mind works. When we feel helpless about something, we just can't help stressing over it. Whatever it is, of course I hope for the best result and I will just have to try my best not to trouble others over my problem. It's just me I guess.

"Doubt yourself and you doubt everything you see. Judge yourself and you see judges everywhere. But if you listen to the sound of your own voice, you can rise above doubt and judgment. And you can see forever."

There are time when you'll have a period of time where you doubt yourself or think that you do not measure up to a certain level of expectations.
Maybe I have been facing that uncertainties for the past one or two days but it's not that big of an issue. It's just some thoughts that's been going through my mind.
Perhaps that's the cause of my sleepless nights.

It's kind of troubling because this issue isn't supposed to happen in the first place.
It makes me feel like I am standing on a thin layer of ice that may break anytime.
Which is a kind of feeling I do not like..
Anyway, will update again soon and hopefully things will turn out to be better.

"A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor's book."

I'm falling asleep in office, but office hour is going to end in another 30 minutes.
I've been rather sleepy lately, it's most definitely due to me unable to sleep.
Have been sleeping rather late, most of the time around 1.30 - 2am.. for some unknown reason.

Anyway, I've been really happy about something which is going to happen, but I can't really say it out loud for some reason which I can't tell.
Although I really wish to share it with the world =x
but I'm happy enough that it is happening already.

However, I am still sleepy. So.. I'm going to slack for awhile, lol.
Good luck, have fun to all!

"Some people need to learn to fuck off from the lives of the people they've hurt"

Finally got that off my chest. Feeling a little better now, but if I could see that person trip on his own shoes would really make my day.

Sorry to start off with such strong words, lol. You'll just have to pardon my randomness.
This piece of crap has been disturbing a certain "part of my life" for two times now and it's getting on my nerves. Most of the time I'm cool with most of the things but once too many times will definitely hit my limit.

If there's a problem, we resolve it.
If there's a thorn under your skin, remove it.
It is that simple, and it is really so simple.

Anyway, consider this an update for March. Will update my blog again soon.
Hope my new design appeals to most of you, took me quite long to change it.
Good luck, have fun to all of you.